Name: CirueLa
Me quede pensando cuando lo piden en webs… tu ‘yo soy’, ‘about me’ ,etc. Encuentras a personas con deseos frustrados de ser infantes, o al menos de sonar como uno… “amo los panditas kajskajskajskas, amo el café sisi”. . Ok, a quien no le gustan los panditas; y el café igual o lo aman o lo detestan, simplemente caes en uno de los dos, no te creas nada especial x]... ponen cosas que no dicen nada de su persona pero así cualquiera que lo lea se sentirá identificado.
Luego pienso cuando es mi turno… ‘about me’… amm… que pongo ¿? A nadie le interesara que me gustan los panditas, sí, y que me gusta pegármelos a la ropa… o que me gustaba hacerlos grandes dejándolos un día en agua. Puede ser que a alguien le interese pero eso en realidad no dice nada de mi persona…. Como carajo se supone que me defina con palabras… no se puede definir a una persona con unas cuantas palabras, ¿o sí? Bueno, me gusta pensar que no, todos tenemos una historia larga detrás, que aburrida aquella persona a la que se le puedan definir con 20 palabras.
Ahora pienso, como creo que soy y como creerán que soy las personas que me conocen… seguramente habrá discrepancias. . . Bueno, toda mi vida, desde pequeña he escuchado algo sobre el cambiar… tengo que cambiar… tienes que cambiar… tengo que cambiar… Oooh si lo recuerdo, el primer recuerdo que tengo es en quinto de primaria. . [ Siempre va a haber gente que te dice que tienes que cambiar] bueno, ahí creo que si cambie… para bien espero, gracias Raúl por tu sinceridad x]. Luego amm, si cambie después en secundaria, luego ya era tanto el deseo de cambiar que me lo impuse yo lo cual termino en un enorme problema sobre mi estabilidad emocional… si si mi pasado... Lo tengo tan presente, no porque viva en él, sino para recordar a como no repetirlo.
Bueno, he llegado al punto en que no quiero cambiar más, ya no le veo el caso, al fin creo que encontré mi estabilidad y no quiero que sea perturbada. ‘Una persona ya a esa edad no cambia…’ recuerdo que lo dijo una señora al lado mío, hablaría de un adulto ya, no sé… no pensé en quien estaría hablando, pensé en esto que estoy escribiendo en este momento.
No me gusta pensar mucho en mí porque luego me perturbo en que no sé cómo definirme; ¿Quién soy? ¿De dónde vengo? ¿Cuál es mi propósito en la vida? ¿A dónde voy? ¿Qué hago aquí? ¿Por qué estoy aquí? ¿Qué es lo que estoy haciendo en estos momentos que forjara mi futuro? . . .
Aprendí a no cuestionarme tanto, no, no me gusta. Incluso me desespera que me cuestionen a mí, el ‘porque’ de mis actitudes y acciones me molesta tanto! Me pone de malas en un segundo.
Aprendí a no creer en las palabras… mis sentimientos no se originan por lo que escucho, para mi entra todo por mis ojos… mis ojos, que haría sin ellos.
Aprendí a confiar un poco más en mi familia, a apreciarla tanto, a abrirme un poco con ellos… pero es que 18 años viviendo con extraños… no puedes cambiar todo de golpe y esperar que todo resulte de la ‘buena forma’.
Aprendí a aprender de las personas que han caminado en mi vida. (no sabía que se pudiera aprender a aprender… creo que eso también lo aprendí xd… que extraña palabra.. aprendí, si, de esas veces que dices mucho algo, prestas atención y se te hace extraño..me estoy desviando del tema.. )
Bueno, siempre me pasa cada que pienso, siempre me desvió… una cosa deriva a la otra como las platicas con los amigos x]… ya no se cual era el propósito de este escrito, creo que nunca lo supe, solo fui escribiendo lo que recuerdo…
A veces me gustaría volver a tener contacto con unas personas del pasado, es interesante saber que han hecho después de tanto tiempo, e inconscientemente pensar en una comparativa sobre el buen aprovechamiento de su tiempo y mi tiempo.
Denisse, te recuerdo tanto, siempre me ayudaste, siempre tan centrada, siempre tan tú. Recuerdas nuestras pelas de nosotras cuatro contra el mundo, jajajaja, me divertía tanto con ustedes, te tengo tan presente que no siento que hayan pasado ya 4 años.
David, gracias por tu confianza y tu apertura conmigo.
Enrique, gracias por haberme hecho sentir la peor basura, gracias por haberme hecho sentir tal mal… gracias a ti soy un poco más fuerte… que paradójico que después nos hubiéramos llevado tan bien.
Gracias a los que me escuchan, gracias a los que me leen, gracias a los que me calman, gracias por no tratar de entenderme y tratar e aceptarme, son ustedes los que marcan mi vida y a los que siempre recordare por el resto de mi existencia.
Derrepente regresan personas que habías dejado atrás… pretendiendo que las cosas son iguales que antes y que lo seguirán siendo… no es así… ha pasado mucho tiempo ya.
Yo cambie, crecí, tú cambiaste, no sé si creciste… Ambos, o bueno no sé la verdad si ambos, no sé si me querías por lo que soy… tal vez me querías simplemente porque yo lo hacía… ¿me querías?
No sé si haya hecho bien en hablarte… lo hice porque me lo pediste… solo quería saber que estabas bien… mas no por otra cosa.
Las cosas que te dije… eran verdad.
Las cosas que te prometí… son y siguen siendo verdad.
...Pero no vivire de mi pasado.
Seguramente por tu mente pasa que puedes jugar con las personas a tu antojo, diciendo lo que esos oídos quieren escuchar… No sé, no sé si ya hayas crecido.
Yo seguiré con mi vida hasta que se extinga, y no detendré mi mundo por atender el tuyo… si, te dije que siempre iba a estar cuando me necesitaras… lo he hecho… creo que lo seguiré haciendo… lo hare por ayudarte y para que sigas adelante. No sé que pase conmigo ni en qué situación me encuentre dentro de 5 años… creeré en el destino… suena menos apático.
¿Porque siempre actuó como un magneto opuesto?
Aun así no te puedo odiar... siempre te querré de alguna forma.
Te deseo solamente felicidad y estabilidad en tu vida.
Siempre quise viajar . ¿Sera un intento de escape?
Si, me quiero ir… ^^
Y pienso si estoy soñando o no. Estoy entre dormida y despierta… como se que no estoy dormida?, porque estoy de alguna forma consiente. Pero si se escucha un ruido repentino me estremeceré de seguro... aun así creo que estoy en parte dormida porque empiezo a ver cosas bizarras, como un brazo gigante que da vueltas...
Formulo pensamientos en mi cabeza…
En la noche me quede viendo un programa… los ciegos no sueñan con imágenes.. como soñaran los ciegos?
Los sueños se supone que son imágenes que manda el cerebro sobre las cosas que hemos registrado con nuestros ojos… es extraño… que soñaran los ciegos?
Aww.. reprobé... no se si sirva mucho de consuelo el hecho de que 30 personas más hayan reprobado... y el hecho de que unos de los 10 que pasaron son la 2da o 3era vez que llevan la materia...
Huele a papas fritas…
Que egoístas pueden llegar a ser las personas… o más bien… desconsideradas, limiten sus comentarios si no son nada buenos por favor.
Ya no siento motivación por la escuela… todo este semestre ha sido así… voy como el perro acatando todo lo que se me dice hacer… donde me perdí?
Y es que como hay gente que no sirve para nada… como hay gente que está en un lugar donde no merece estar… como hay gente desaprovechando su vida… como hay gente.! .. Mugrosos chinos.
Todo es rutina.
I guess you meant more to me, than i ever did to you…
Me cansé.
-----A. Powell Davies:
Abraham Lincoln:Life is just a chance to grow a soul.
Adrienne Rich:And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years.
Alan Bennett:Life on the planet is born of woman.
Albert Camus:Life is rather like a tin of sardines - we're all of us looking for the key.
Albert Einstein:All men have a sweetness in their life. That is what helps them go on. It is towards that they turn when they feel too worn out.
Albert Einstein:True religion is real living; living with all one's soul, with all one's goodness and righteousness.
Albert Schweitzer:Only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile.
Albert Schweitzer:There are two means of refuge from the miseries of life: music and cats.
Albert Schweitzer:Ethics cannot be based upon our obligations toward [people], but they are complete and natural only when we feel this Reverence for Life and the desire to have compassion for and to help all creatures insofar as it is in our power. I think that this ethic will become more and more recognized because of its great naturalness and because it is the foundation of a true humanism toward which we must strive if our culture is to become truly ethical.
Albert Schweitzer:Ethics, too, are nothing but reverence for life. This is what gives me the fundamental principle of morality, namely, that good consists in maintaining, promoting, and enhancing life, and that destroying, injuring, and limiting life are evil.
Civilization and Ethics, 1949
Alice Walker:Reverence for Life affords me my fundamental principle of morality, namely, that good consists in maintaining, assisting, and enhancing life and that to destroy, harm, or to hinder life is evil. Affirmation of the world -- that is affirmation of the will to live, which appears in phenomenal forms all around me -- is only possible for me in that I give myself out for other life.
Alice Walker:Deliver me from writers who say the way they live doesn't matter. I'm not sure a bad person can write a good book. If art doesn't make us better, then what on earth is it for.
Amelia Burr:Expect nothing, live frugally on surprise.
Anais Nin:Because I have loved life, I shall have no sorrow to die.
Anais Nin:Life is a process of becoming, a combination of states we have to go through. Where people fail is that they wish to elect a state and remain in it. This is a kind of death.
Anais Nin:People living deeply have no fear of death.
Anais Nin:The personal life deeply lived always expands into truths beyond itself.
André Gide:Dreams pass into the reality of action. From the actions stems the dream again; and this interdependence produces the highest form of living.
Anne Wilson Schaef:The most decisive actions of our life ... are most often unconsidered actions.
Annie Dillard:Life is a process. We are a process. The universe is a process.
Barbara Kingsolver:How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives.
Barry Lopez:Wars and elections are both too big and too small to matter in the long run. The daily work - that goes on, it adds up.
Baruch Spinoza:How is one to live a moral and compassionate existence when one is fully aware of the blood, the horror inherent in life, when one finds darkness not only in one's culture but within oneself? If there is a stage at which an individual life becomes truly adult, it must be when one grasps the irony in its unfolding and accepts responsibility for a life lived in the midst of such paradox. One must live in the middle of contradiction, because if all contradiction were eliminated at once life would collapse. There are simply no answers to some of the great pressing questions. You continue to live them out, making your life a worthy expression of leaning into the light.
Arctic Dreams
Ben Jonson:What everyone wants from life is continuous and genuine happiness.
Benjamin Disraeli:A good life is a main argument.
Benjamin Franklin:Read no history: nothing but biography, for that is life without theory.
Bertrand Russell:Dost thou love life? Then do not squander time, for that the stuff life is made of.
Bertrand Russell:Three passions have governed my life:
The longings for love, the search for knowledge,
And unbearable pity for the suffering of [humankind].Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness.
In the union of love I have seen
In a mystic miniature the prefiguring vision
Of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined.With equal passion I have sought knowledge.
I have wished to understand the hearts of [people].
I have wished to know why the stars shine.Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens,
But always pity brought me back to earth;
Cries of pain reverberated in my heart
Of children in famine, of victims tortured
And of old people left helpless.
I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot,
And I too suffer.This has been my life; I found it worth living.
adapted
Brother David Steindl-Rast :The good life is inspired by love and guided by knowledge.
Buckminster Fuller:Gratefulness is the key to a happy life that we hold in our hands, because if we are not grateful, then no matter how much we have we will not be happy -- because we will always want to have something else or something more.
Buddha:Now there is one outstandingly important fact regarding Spaceship Earth, and that is that no instruction book came with it.
Captain Jean-Luc Picard:If we could see the miracle of a single flower clearly, our whole life would change.
Carl Jung:Time is a companion that goes with us on a journey. It reminds us to cherish each moment, because it will never come again. What we leave behind is not as important as how we have lived.
played by Patrick Stewart, from the film "Star Trek: Generations"
Carl Sandburg:There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness.
Carl Sandburg:Our lives are like a candle in the wind.
Charlotte Bronte:Life is like an onion: You peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes you weep.
Chinese proverb:Life is so constructed that an event does not, cannot, will not, match the expectation.
Colette:When you have only two pennies left in the world, buy a loaf of bread with one, and a lily with the other.
Colette:I love my past. I love my present. I'm not ashamed of what I've had, and I'm not sad because I have it no longer.
Corita Kent:Life is nothing but a series of crosses for us mothers.
Corita Kent:Love the moment. Flowers grow out of dark moments. Therefore, each moment is vital. It affects the whole. Life is a succession of such moments and to live each, is to succeed.
Dorothy Thompson:Life is a succession of moments. To live each one is to succeed.
Dorothy Thompson:Courage, it would seem, is nothing less than the power to overcome danger, misfortune, fear, injustice, while continuing to affirm inwardly that life with all its sorrows is good; that everything is meaningful even if in a sense beyond our understanding; and that there is always tomorrow.
E. B. White:Only when we are no longer afraid do we begin to live.
Edith Wharton:You have been my friend. That in itself is a tremendous thing. I wove my webs for you because I liked you. After all, what's a life, anyway? We're born, we live a little while, we die. A spider's life can't help being something of a mess, with all this trapping and eating flies. By helping you, perhaps I was trying to lift up my life a trifle. Heaven knows anyone's life can stand a little of that.
Charlotte, "Charlotte's Web"
Edna St. Vincent Millay:Life is the only real counselor; wisdom unfiltered through personal experience does not become a part of the moral tissue.
Edna St. Vincent Millay:My candle burns at both its ends;
It will not last the night;
But oh, my foes, and oh, my friends --
It gives a lovely light.
Elbert Hubbard:Life is a quest and love a quarrel ...
Elbert Hubbard:Life is just one damned thing after another.
Eleanor Roosevelt:Do not take life too seriously. You will never get out of it alive.
Eleanor Roosevelt:I could not, at any age, be content to take my place by the fireside and simply look on. Life was meant to be lived. Curiosity must be kept alive. One must never, for whatever reason, turn his back on life.
Eleanor Roosevelt:People grow through experience if they meet life honestly and courageously. This is how character is built.
Elie Wiesel:I think somehow we learn who we really are and then live with that decision.
Elizabeth Drew:The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference.
The opposite of art is not ugliness, it's indifference.
The opposite of faith is not heresy, it's indifference.
And the opposite of life is not death, it's indifference.
(Oct. 1986)
Emily Dickinson:The test of literature is, I suppose, whether we ourselves live more intensely for the reading of it.
Emily Dickinson:Love—is anterior to Life—
Posterior—to Death—
Initial of Creation, and
The Exponent of Earth—
Emily Dickinson:If I can stop one heart from breaking,
I shall not live in vain.
If I can ease one life the aching,
Or cool one pain,
Or help one fainting robin
Unto his nest again,
I shall not live in vain.
Emily Dickinson:That it will never come again is what makes life so sweet.
Erik H. Erikson:To live is so startling it leaves little time for anything else.
Ernest Becker:Hope is both the earliest and the most indispensable virtue inherent in the state of being alive. If life is to be sustained hope must remain, even where confidence is wounded, trust impaired.
Ernest Becker:The irony of man's condition is that the deepest need is to be free of the anxiety of death and annihilation; but it is life itself which awakens it, and so we must shrink from being fully alive.
Ernest Becker:[W]e now know that the human animal is characterized by two great fears that other animals are protected from: the fear of life and the fear of death... Heidegger brought these fears to the center of his existential philosophy. He argued that the basic anxiety of [humanity] is anxiety about being-in-the-world, as well as anxiety of being-in-the-world. That is, both fear of death and fear of life, of experience and individuation.
Ernest Dowson:I think that taking life seriously means something such as this: that whatever man does on this planet has to be done in the lived truth of the terror of creation, of the grotesque, of the rumble of panic underneath everything. Otherwise it is false. Whatever is achieved must be achieved with the full exercise of passion, of vision, of pain, of fear, and of sorrow. How do we know ... that our part of the meaning of the universe might not be a rhythm in sorrow?
F. Forrester Church:They are not long, the weeping and the laughter,
Love and desire and hate:
I think they have no portion in us after
We pass the gate.
They are not long, the days of wine and roses;
Out of a misty dream
Our path emerges for a while, then closes
Within a dream.
Franklin P. Jones:Religion is the human response to being alive and having to die.
Frederick Buechner:Love doesn't make the world go 'round; love is what makes the ride worthwhile.
The life I touch for good or ill will touch another life, and that in turn another, until who knows where the trembling stops or in what far place my touch will be felt.
And we should consider every day lost on which we have not danced at least once. And we should call every truth false which was not accompanied by at least one laugh.